Trip to Rajkot

Just came back from an amazing trip to rajkot, my in law's place. It is always a special feeling to go to rajkot,. As every time I go there I feel I get to know more about Bhavit's past life, as in his growing up days. Whenever I pass a street or neighbourhood, I feel ohh he must have done this here or he must have passed this place so many times. And, its a great feeling to breath in the same air, where he has once spend his childhood. I love that feeling, it gives my an excitement. Also, I got to meet my sweetheart. And the best thing was our journey together from ahmedabad to rajkot. Even travelling in the most uncomfortable situations, with him becomes the happiest journey of my life. I love him to the core and just pray for his health and happiness always. May BABA keeps his hand on us always...Ahmen!!!! Being part of his life and his family, is a great joy. Honestly, I even miss being with mum and dad. I do miss their company as well. I really adore them and respect them.

The trip was amazing, with lost and lots of shopping and fun time with my to be family. And the best thing is that they already feel that they know me for years together. Its great to hear from even mamaji and mamiji that don't feel I am new to the family. Its great satisfaction that even the extended family has welcomed me with open hands and accepted me well. I just all goes well in the future as well.

Power of Senses

There are so many thing we get or achieve in life, that few basic things which are very crucial to us, we take for granted. Have u ever thought about not able to see the world around you, or hear the beautiful voices or the fact that you have many feelings inside you, which you can't express, as you can't speak. No, I am sure you haven't. Just imagine how frustrating this can be. Just the thought of these possibilities make me stammer. So, just imagine people who are living with these disparities. How do they manage to lead there day to day life. What brings them happiness, how can they enjoy the sheer beauty & noises of our mother nature. And most importantly how can we bring a change in their life.

Life is too short, if we can just leave few happy moments in lives of people around us and not only the people whom we are associated with. Guess who is my biggest motivator in life, one of my lecturers from my Eng(hons) classes in DU. Not just because he was blind, or he was a teacher, but also because he was full of passion and enthusiasm, I never could miss his class. I just wonder sometimes, how did he get such positive attitude in life. I have learned a lot from him, not just academically but also behavioural traits. I have learned to respect what I have got. I have learned to respect others, the way they are. I have learned to be happy and strong against any odds that come my way.

"I look upon people, rather than looking down at them".

I never think that oh my God I don't have it, rather I think wow I have got so much more than billions of people and there so much more I can achieve. That's keeps me going at the same time keeps me grounded. Most importantly, I try and give joy to people around me, especially the people who are deprived of it. As in, just pass a smile to a street child/ beggar or possibly share your candy with the poor children, domestic help & the scavengers. Such small gestures would not harm anyone at all, but make them smile back at you!!

I just wonder sometimes, when do u actually know "you are in love". How can one know that this is the person you wanna spend rest of your life with, have kids and grow old by his side. All the relations I have personally have had in my life or people around me have had, have all started with a simple plain friendship, which has grown stronger with time & know-how of other person. But, it could be just infatuation and not love, it could be sheer attraction and not love. Sometimes, one just gets use to other person so much that the absence of the person in question makes one's life miserable.

Well, quite a similar thing happened with me, when I met Bhavit we were just friends. Simple, plain friends, met through a common friend. And God knows when during our association of 3 years plus, we became inseparable. Even though, we were never together, we always or rather mostly lived in different cities or continents, but there was some kind of bonding, which made me chuckle even with a simple Hello from him. I guess that made me realise that there is something special about this one "friend". One goes through many relationships in life. Thus, it becomes more & more complicated to realise who Mr Right is for you.

I have seen many of my friends doing that mistake. When they meet a person, they think he is the one and things don't work out and same things happens again. But, what is painful is to see them in the state of complete disaster repeatedly. Fortunately, before this I never felt this way about anybody. I never felt that I should get married to this guy, or he is the one for me. I guess, I had learned to hold back until I was absolutely sure of my feelings and of course of the other person. When I met Bhavit, we didn't rush into any decisions or judgments about our relationship/ friendship. We didn't think about where we were heading, but eventually when we did. We were head strong about what we wanted and by Gods grace we did get it. So, there was no looking back. It wasn't a plain sailing at all, but I can now say it was enjoyable. He is and will remain my best friend, irrespective of the change in our formal relation and that's how I always wanted it.

So, when I was dieing to hear his voice once, despite the distance and knowing the fact that we will possibly speak only once a week or once a month. I new, it was not obsession or infatuation, it was sheer love. And, thats how I found my love...cheers to our love xxx

Variations in Thoughts

Life has been really pacing up lately... there are so many thoughts I wanna pen down, but when I do get down to actually writing them, either they all just juggle up or I am left completely blank. Thus, there has been no post for quite some time on my blog. I sometimes feel that I an God's special child, as despite all the odds in my life, I do manage to achieve what I want to. However, on the other end I do feel let down or betrayed by almighty, as why do I have to face all these troubles in life, at that to such a young tender age. Its a mix feeling. I have suffered enough trauma and want to have a peaceful life now. I pray and hope that almighty is listening top my feelings from bottom of my heart. It, sometimes becomes difficult to lead a normal life, when people around you are suffering so much. Unfortunately, I am not among the people who can just look at things and just walk past the without they affecting me. I guess, that is the trait I have picked up from my dad, of being every bit emotional. Tears droll down my eyes, even in my achievements and happy moments, just like my father. And another reason why that happens, is because I miss my father immensely. I may not ever mention it, but that is big part of life which is missing and will continue to do so. hey, I am getting emotional so lets stop for now...