Trip to Rajkot

Just came back from an amazing trip to rajkot, my in law's place. It is always a special feeling to go to rajkot,. As every time I go there I feel I get to know more about Bhavit's past life, as in his growing up days. Whenever I pass a street or neighbourhood, I feel ohh he must have done this here or he must have passed this place so many times. And, its a great feeling to breath in the same air, where he has once spend his childhood. I love that feeling, it gives my an excitement. Also, I got to meet my sweetheart. And the best thing was our journey together from ahmedabad to rajkot. Even travelling in the most uncomfortable situations, with him becomes the happiest journey of my life. I love him to the core and just pray for his health and happiness always. May BABA keeps his hand on us always...Ahmen!!!! Being part of his life and his family, is a great joy. Honestly, I even miss being with mum and dad. I do miss their company as well. I really adore them and respect them.

The trip was amazing, with lost and lots of shopping and fun time with my to be family. And the best thing is that they already feel that they know me for years together. Its great to hear from even mamaji and mamiji that don't feel I am new to the family. Its great satisfaction that even the extended family has welcomed me with open hands and accepted me well. I just all goes well in the future as well.

Power of Senses

There are so many thing we get or achieve in life, that few basic things which are very crucial to us, we take for granted. Have u ever thought about not able to see the world around you, or hear the beautiful voices or the fact that you have many feelings inside you, which you can't express, as you can't speak. No, I am sure you haven't. Just imagine how frustrating this can be. Just the thought of these possibilities make me stammer. So, just imagine people who are living with these disparities. How do they manage to lead there day to day life. What brings them happiness, how can they enjoy the sheer beauty & noises of our mother nature. And most importantly how can we bring a change in their life.

Life is too short, if we can just leave few happy moments in lives of people around us and not only the people whom we are associated with. Guess who is my biggest motivator in life, one of my lecturers from my Eng(hons) classes in DU. Not just because he was blind, or he was a teacher, but also because he was full of passion and enthusiasm, I never could miss his class. I just wonder sometimes, how did he get such positive attitude in life. I have learned a lot from him, not just academically but also behavioural traits. I have learned to respect what I have got. I have learned to respect others, the way they are. I have learned to be happy and strong against any odds that come my way.

"I look upon people, rather than looking down at them".

I never think that oh my God I don't have it, rather I think wow I have got so much more than billions of people and there so much more I can achieve. That's keeps me going at the same time keeps me grounded. Most importantly, I try and give joy to people around me, especially the people who are deprived of it. As in, just pass a smile to a street child/ beggar or possibly share your candy with the poor children, domestic help & the scavengers. Such small gestures would not harm anyone at all, but make them smile back at you!!

I just wonder sometimes, when do u actually know "you are in love". How can one know that this is the person you wanna spend rest of your life with, have kids and grow old by his side. All the relations I have personally have had in my life or people around me have had, have all started with a simple plain friendship, which has grown stronger with time & know-how of other person. But, it could be just infatuation and not love, it could be sheer attraction and not love. Sometimes, one just gets use to other person so much that the absence of the person in question makes one's life miserable.

Well, quite a similar thing happened with me, when I met Bhavit we were just friends. Simple, plain friends, met through a common friend. And God knows when during our association of 3 years plus, we became inseparable. Even though, we were never together, we always or rather mostly lived in different cities or continents, but there was some kind of bonding, which made me chuckle even with a simple Hello from him. I guess that made me realise that there is something special about this one "friend". One goes through many relationships in life. Thus, it becomes more & more complicated to realise who Mr Right is for you.

I have seen many of my friends doing that mistake. When they meet a person, they think he is the one and things don't work out and same things happens again. But, what is painful is to see them in the state of complete disaster repeatedly. Fortunately, before this I never felt this way about anybody. I never felt that I should get married to this guy, or he is the one for me. I guess, I had learned to hold back until I was absolutely sure of my feelings and of course of the other person. When I met Bhavit, we didn't rush into any decisions or judgments about our relationship/ friendship. We didn't think about where we were heading, but eventually when we did. We were head strong about what we wanted and by Gods grace we did get it. So, there was no looking back. It wasn't a plain sailing at all, but I can now say it was enjoyable. He is and will remain my best friend, irrespective of the change in our formal relation and that's how I always wanted it.

So, when I was dieing to hear his voice once, despite the distance and knowing the fact that we will possibly speak only once a week or once a month. I new, it was not obsession or infatuation, it was sheer love. And, thats how I found my love...cheers to our love xxx

Variations in Thoughts

Life has been really pacing up lately... there are so many thoughts I wanna pen down, but when I do get down to actually writing them, either they all just juggle up or I am left completely blank. Thus, there has been no post for quite some time on my blog. I sometimes feel that I an God's special child, as despite all the odds in my life, I do manage to achieve what I want to. However, on the other end I do feel let down or betrayed by almighty, as why do I have to face all these troubles in life, at that to such a young tender age. Its a mix feeling. I have suffered enough trauma and want to have a peaceful life now. I pray and hope that almighty is listening top my feelings from bottom of my heart. It, sometimes becomes difficult to lead a normal life, when people around you are suffering so much. Unfortunately, I am not among the people who can just look at things and just walk past the without they affecting me. I guess, that is the trait I have picked up from my dad, of being every bit emotional. Tears droll down my eyes, even in my achievements and happy moments, just like my father. And another reason why that happens, is because I miss my father immensely. I may not ever mention it, but that is big part of life which is missing and will continue to do so. hey, I am getting emotional so lets stop for now...

18 weeks in counting...

hey guys 18 weeks in counting, the excitement is increasing. my heart has started to thump faster with each passing day. So, much to do and so much to look upto. Loads of if's and but's. I have almost lost my sleep. Last night I went to bed at 9.30 p.m, but could not sleepuntil 11.30 and shocking as it may sound, I got up at 6a.m. Despite, all of it I am loving every bit of it, especially the shopping bit. Getting married to a friend is quite fun, as u can talk and discuss about any damn thing. I just wish I could be with him or atleast hangout with him before we tigh the knot. I know its not gonna be possible though. I have been jotting down the things I need to do or want to buy. its ll very exciting...can't find words anymore...so lets wait till the next post fornow...take care :)

Stress & Ego

Hey lately I have realised how some people on the basis of their ego can ruin life of people around them. Why the hell do they think that they are the GOD. They are always right, though on the basis of past experiences they are if not always mostly wrong. Still, their ego doesn`t falter a bit. They know they are wrong, can`t make firm decisions, forget about implementation. However, accepting it is a task for them, which they would never ever accomplish. And most importantly they can`t live with this fact and neither would they let you live. See, if you remember in my last blog I talked about stress. That's where it comes from. I cant live peacefully with all this going on, enjoying the preparation for my wedding is last thing on my mind. And you know what, the best thing is that for them it is no big deal, they are used to living like this and behave absolutely fine with other people, rather with everyone they would behave as if all is well. But I can`t perceive. I can`t pretend. What is on mind, is straight on my face as well. If I am not happy, I can`t giggle in front of other people and be straight face with one. I will be consistent with my reactions and behaviour with one and all. I really don`t understand how people behave like this.

I just wanna get away with this all, as I always have been. Again, the good part is that I will be able to get away with this all pretty soon. So, "yes" you guessed it right, I am counting days...Sorry, for such frustrating blog. This I guess is a stress buster for me, rather than howling at someone I would rather just pen it down. And trust me it works. I have been doing it since my childhood and guess what I was never told that I invented it. Since, childhood when I was frustrated (which was more often than I would laugh) I would just cry a lot, take a pen and paper and just pen it all down and I felt so much better. And see it worked, I am here still alive and absolutely normal. So guys, if you are really frustrated and wanna get that thing out, you don't need anything but a pen and a paper. Tell me, if it works for you as well, then possibly I can earn some bucks out of it..lolz... take care you all and have all the happiness in the world.....

Its been really long, since I have visited this place, least to mention there has been no updates. Alot has happened during this time for good. However, this is a new beginning for me in more ways than one. Life has changed multi folds for me. I am now living in my home country and working here. Trying hard to strike a balance between the two. Moreover, still struggling to get used to the environment around me. As I said before as well things have changed big time and I have taken some big decisions in my life, which are further gonna change my life. One thing which I must say is that "God has been kind" all thorough out.

Moving forward I will be in a new face of my life, which will in turn give me a companion to cherish my whole life and a set of new parents. Well.. to be honest I have already got them. you can have a glimse of my family. And as any other girl would be , I am full of presumption. I am a little bit anxious, a bit excited and very scared. Its a mixture of feelings that I am going through, but can`t share it with anyone, as no one would exactly understand it until they have gone through it themselves.....having said that, every girl in India goes through the same. The part which I am really looking forward to is the extensive saga of shopping...lolz...This statement would not be a shocker for people who know me...hmm at least something is of interest in the process to overcome stress. But I am glad that I will be tieing knot with a friend..wonder why??? Simple, any relationship can be a success with a element of friendship and especially that of a marital bliss. In my case, I am committing to a friend only, so the element of friendship supersedes all other aspects... neways I will take your leave for now and be back with some more information and updates on the process besides the other developments. Till then keep watching this space for more spice... cheeriohh... :)